Not a social butterfly.

I was feeling down and it was nothing new. Feeling low for an adolescent in her early 20s can be due to any of the reasons from the hormonal changes of the monthly cycle , or an argument with mother to serious heartbreak. None was the matter with me. I just wanted to retire from everything and everyone around me. You know? I wanted to switch off my cell, shut down all my accounts on different social networks, stop giving opinions on matters and just be quiet and calm. I spent one whole evening in the privacy of my own room, sorting clothes,, cleaning cabinets and trying very hard to focus only at the task at hand. I put all other thoughts at the back of my mind. I wanted to think simple, the way kids think. Everything they do, they are not going through a hundred different emotions inside. I figured life could be lived simply. Hassle and arguments could be avoided. You wanted peace, you could get it. Some of us just aren't the social butterflies and hard though we may try, we are not going to fit in. Some of us are always going to love a quiet corner and some good music alone or with one person whose company we genuinely enjoy more than being the gossip girls. Of course I wouldn't encourage bad communication skills or anti-social behavior with that but so long as you are polite and civil to everyone around you, i think these preferences for your own little world are quite OK to have. I don't feel left out, or lonely, or sad, just comfortable in my own skin.
Looking pretty for pictures,  hollering at the top of my voice , cheering loudly, losing my mind to fun isn't the way I work. I work quiet, and I like to pass unnoticed sometimes.  Everything else that I do is for the sake of coping with my social life in a better way :-)