Hiralious

 So today I received the two books:

The 'practical strategies in outpatient Medicine' and 'Thus Spoke Zarathustra'.

These books are unrelated to each other. This is my life reflected in my book reading habits. I am interested in a lot of the things at the same time and sometimes I feel I am suspended in a continuous state of hyperactivity and inattention. But this post is not about that. It's about my initial thoughts about the latter book.

I was reading the preface of the book, written by Nietzsche's brother, and he was describing how Zarathustra was a product of Neitzsche's imagination. I couldn't help thinking that it was like having an imaginary friend. And how having an imaginary friend late into adulthood would be looked down upon by the people. But posthumously, Neitzsche is a big deal. His writings are not read as 'ramblings of a lonely man who couldn't make it in the society'. The harsh critique of society exists as long as the person does.

In life, I really admire the people who make decisions based on their values, even if they go against the flow of the society. I don't think I am such a person. But also at the same time, I know that my motive is not so much approval of the society as it is preventing hurt for my loved ones. I really do carry that weight in my life. Because of which there are really only a few moments in my life that I feel truly free.

Thankfully, learning new things and diving into intellectual processes of someone is a source of great relief for me. I am aware that something which is a relief to me, shouldn't be my escape when there is something in my life that needs to be done. In some domains of my life, I REALLY need to work on myself. 

(I am quite happy and excited to read these two books)