The air is still as my heart is still. I have been coming to this place since I was 11. Every summer vacation we would fly to Saudi Arabia
to spend two months with my father. I have been very critical about the treatment of women in this place. But still this place has a charm for me, as it's a part of my life that I will always remember . I have so many memories to take from here. I have felt defeated , confined within the four walls of this small house. I have felt great about my Matriculation Result that was announced when i was here in Kingdom. I have felt rebellious , having to do things I had no heart in. I have felt hurt about the playful mockery of my father which sometimes ceased to be playful to my ears. I have felt overwhelmed by the bottomless generosity of the same man. So really. I cannot say I have nothing to take from here but sadness at the state of affairs. This desert, the sheet of stars in the sky, the sound of Rafi and Lata playing in our car on our journeys back from Mecca and Medina, these memories are in command of my emotions like a very strong and familiar fragrance which transports you back in time. I will miss this when I have no respite from the scorching summer heat ( and power load-shedding) of Pakistan. I will miss this exposure to a different culture where men and women are entirely different creatures.
Yanbu witnessed a beginning of many things in my life. As things slip from present into the past, I feel no regret about my time here
to spend two months with my father. I have been very critical about the treatment of women in this place. But still this place has a charm for me, as it's a part of my life that I will always remember . I have so many memories to take from here. I have felt defeated , confined within the four walls of this small house. I have felt great about my Matriculation Result that was announced when i was here in Kingdom. I have felt rebellious , having to do things I had no heart in. I have felt hurt about the playful mockery of my father which sometimes ceased to be playful to my ears. I have felt overwhelmed by the bottomless generosity of the same man. So really. I cannot say I have nothing to take from here but sadness at the state of affairs. This desert, the sheet of stars in the sky, the sound of Rafi and Lata playing in our car on our journeys back from Mecca and Medina, these memories are in command of my emotions like a very strong and familiar fragrance which transports you back in time. I will miss this when I have no respite from the scorching summer heat ( and power load-shedding) of Pakistan. I will miss this exposure to a different culture where men and women are entirely different creatures.Yanbu witnessed a beginning of many things in my life. As things slip from present into the past, I feel no regret about my time here
We cannot wish for temporary parts of our temporary reality to exist permanently. We cannot hold the reigns in our hands or even wish for it to be so. Life has a mind of it's own. . I learnt that which was in my capacity. And that, I think is the only solace about departures . I learnt all I could. I did all there was. I have something to take from here.
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