When I was a child I couldn't believe I would see a rainbow after rain. Everybody pointed to it and sometimes when I did not see it I never demanded to see it. I never tried harder. When I was in high school , I read about the structure of atoms, so much of it was built on imagination..so much of it was just something to learn as facts. .so many of the basic things were events happening so far away from my solid, real world that somewhere along I stopped thinking. I remembered stuff as facts . I got disappointed when I didn't recall a fact verbatim. then into medical school, we were told to percuss the patient's body as a part of examination . I could not believe it. I had ears that would miss a scream just because my mind was busy elsewhere. How could I pick something so small? how could something so small be so crucial? My scores throughout my academic career kept my attention deviated from the perplexion and utter confusion of my doubtful mind. I was smart on paper and a clutz otherwise. The shift from doubting others to doubting myself happened without my knowledge.It became a habit.
Now i know, as old age knows ..To see the rainbow i had to actively seek it. To know the truth, or just commit myself to the search of truth I had to be a lone warrior in the world of knowledge.
Doubting your faculties ...There may be no reason I can give you, that why you shouldn't do it if this is your natural tendency to do so . This doesn't have to do with reasons however. It has to do with the fact that it is your decision, not a logical conclusion of your repeated failures. Because amidst all this arbitrariness is the fact that you are as able as anyone else. The day you doubt your faculties to the degree that you stop doing things, is the day you assume the passive role in your own life. That day is the day you start letting circumstances define you. If you don't consciously work to improve your capabilities or make up for your deficiencies, you make them a permanent reality in your mind and in the minds of people around you. Why should you believe you can always overcome your shortcomings? To this nothing is a better answer that ' Either you think you can, or you think you can't . You are right. '.
if you think you can't. And you are happy with it. Then this was not for you. The rest of the people I urge you, to unfold your own unique story. Break the pattern of convenience. Flow against the natural tendency of feeling broken, hurt, small . You have to see your rainbow for yourself. It is your own gift.
Now i know, as old age knows ..To see the rainbow i had to actively seek it. To know the truth, or just commit myself to the search of truth I had to be a lone warrior in the world of knowledge.
Doubting your faculties ...There may be no reason I can give you, that why you shouldn't do it if this is your natural tendency to do so . This doesn't have to do with reasons however. It has to do with the fact that it is your decision, not a logical conclusion of your repeated failures. Because amidst all this arbitrariness is the fact that you are as able as anyone else. The day you doubt your faculties to the degree that you stop doing things, is the day you assume the passive role in your own life. That day is the day you start letting circumstances define you. If you don't consciously work to improve your capabilities or make up for your deficiencies, you make them a permanent reality in your mind and in the minds of people around you. Why should you believe you can always overcome your shortcomings? To this nothing is a better answer that ' Either you think you can, or you think you can't . You are right. '.
if you think you can't. And you are happy with it. Then this was not for you. The rest of the people I urge you, to unfold your own unique story. Break the pattern of convenience. Flow against the natural tendency of feeling broken, hurt, small . You have to see your rainbow for yourself. It is your own gift.
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