Even then.

If I am going to know you.
I am going to be distant with you.
Until i know you better, I am going to reserve my opinion.
When i finally know you better.
I am going to open up.
Bit by Bit, layer by layer.
Once i like you.
I am going to stand by you.
Once I trust you.
I am never going to break your trust. 
Once I give you a place in my life.
I am going to make you irreplaceable.
I am going to believe in you and reject my own reservations.
I am going to drop caution.
But then what happens?
Time goes by.
and i realize same is not the matter with you.
I do not complain.
But if I do.
We are both going to know that neither of us owns the other.
And i am going to acknowledge the truth.
Because i love truths and hard facts.
They make me feel safe.
And I am going to back-step a little.
Leaving a little piece of my myself with you.
Leaving the space where our companionship had existed in realms of time.
I am still going to stand by you.
and like you.
and be around you if I am supposed to.
But I don't know what is missing.
That I cannot drop caution around you anymore.
That I have to be alone in entirety.
Even when you are with me.