What hurts me about lonely people and orphans is that they may get the basic facilities , even a fixed amount of love and care by a state institution or an NGO. But they don't have anyone to be angry with.
How many times in life, despite keeping our emotions in check, we sometimes , wrongly , become a little mean to the person whose love we can count on, only to be reassured. We want, i'd say even NEED that moment of weakness that displays the raw human-ness of our bad side; To be loved despite that.
From SOMEONE, we want the love which is biased in our favor. We get that from parents , our life partners, or our friends sometimes. We'd be fooling ourselves if we said we always wanted justice in the love and attention we received. We want to be favorites for someone. We want some eyes to scan just for us at the school gate. Our needs are far more than just physical.Sometimes, just sometimes we want immunity for our behavior. And the people who love us can forget about being right sometimes: To let us be.
Who does it for the people who don't have anyone ?
A child throws tantrums now and then , and the mother may admonish him/ her but doesn't let anyone else do it.
A child gets a scolding for his wrong behavior but the parent makes up for nothing but the feeling that the child has, when the storm has passed. For someone getting equal care, the punishment is just that , a punishment. No one tip toes to their room in night to watch them sleep.
. . If you don't have that love, that shelter above your head , anyone can say anything and you have to grow a thick callus where your skin is. And you have to become a fighter. You have to be what world perceives as selfish.
Because when there is no one else looking for your interests, you HAVE to look for them or be run over by the stampede. Perhaps it is the only survival choice in many circumstances.
Usually in life we are in a defence mode and we don't let anyone be cross with us. It happens a lot with me too. I am just cognizant of the fact that I am at a certain advantage. And that my standard of 'goodness' may not apply to everyone else. Maybe i was better loved than they ever were. I find it to be an important reminder.
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