I don't know how to break this to you but by being with me you are hurting her. She loves you and thinks the world of you. You deny it and somehow i find it hard to trust. Because she cries true tears, because i know she has a good heart. Because i know she has no reason to lie !
Maybe I am a liberal figure for you. Someone who will just open up and accept you. You feel it is OK to be flirtatious with me. You may or may not think I am interested in you. That's not even the point of concern. 'I' am not even a point of concern here. She is. You are. You both are. And i wish you would stop using me as a pawn, I wish you'd spare me the job of trying to solve the riddles, the emotional effort it takes me to decipher meanings in the lovely stuff you say to me, to not read between the lines, to not be flattered. I do not expect anything from you yet. And I won't go to a point where I start to. Because it is not right. She has told me what it was between you. She has told me the least she could but the most I needed to hear.
and i am not here to take advantage of your confusion, even if i like you.
I am not here to steal you away from her, even if i like you.
I don't have the wish to hurt anyone, as long as I have the liberty to hurt myself instead. I can function without you. I can recover from this sweet pain in heart. I can give up on a dream you have already created with someone else. I can believe in 'it wasn't meant to be'.
I can do all this.
Because i am stronger. and for the first time in history of natural selection, the weaker gets the bait. She gets you. I trust her, i have made a choice. I am liberal, not immoral. I can hurt but not cause hurt. These are the hard principles laid down in concrete of my life, principles which cannot be broken even if i am broken.
Maybe I am a liberal figure for you. Someone who will just open up and accept you. You feel it is OK to be flirtatious with me. You may or may not think I am interested in you. That's not even the point of concern. 'I' am not even a point of concern here. She is. You are. You both are. And i wish you would stop using me as a pawn, I wish you'd spare me the job of trying to solve the riddles, the emotional effort it takes me to decipher meanings in the lovely stuff you say to me, to not read between the lines, to not be flattered. I do not expect anything from you yet. And I won't go to a point where I start to. Because it is not right. She has told me what it was between you. She has told me the least she could but the most I needed to hear.
and i am not here to take advantage of your confusion, even if i like you.
I am not here to steal you away from her, even if i like you.
I don't have the wish to hurt anyone, as long as I have the liberty to hurt myself instead. I can function without you. I can recover from this sweet pain in heart. I can give up on a dream you have already created with someone else. I can believe in 'it wasn't meant to be'.
I can do all this.
Because i am stronger. and for the first time in history of natural selection, the weaker gets the bait. She gets you. I trust her, i have made a choice. I am liberal, not immoral. I can hurt but not cause hurt. These are the hard principles laid down in concrete of my life, principles which cannot be broken even if i am broken.
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